New Years Resolutions

1. Get healthy (Lose weight and make sure my ulcers/decaying stomach don't get worse.)
2. Have a 3.6 GPA or higher.
3. Get a job.
4. Decide my major.
5. Find a guy who treats me well and loves me for who I am.
6. Become more outgoing and not be scared to speak in public.
7. Find an apartment/dorm.
8. Learn how to drive.
9. Go to all the shows I can go to, and meet the bands.
10. Don't allow people to walk all over me.

and if i last through the winter, i swear to you now, i won't call...

so, first things first. grades so far:
sociology: a
math: b
asian history: b
fysh: a+

now, this week has been quite eventful. it's the holiday season and i've received some awesome gifts from friends, so thank you guys for that! tuesday, i got a call from central market grill and i had my interview with al. i got the job!

tuesday after my american final, i saw jeff and scott for a few minutes, then i went out with becky. we had so much fun. we went to nam son and had yummy vietnamese food and walked around china town. i got an awesome tea pot at pearl river market and flowering tea at a tea shop. when we got back to riverdale, we stopped off at petland and got fish to eat the algae from our tanks. i forget what they're called. then i saw my grandma for a little bit and went home.

on wednesday, i went to build-a-bear in the westchester and made jeff a bear. i spoke to ness when i got home. she told me that she liked jeff. i was pissed, but what could i do? i can't control how she feels.

on christmas day, ness fills out a survey on myspace and says that the last person to kiss her and call her baby was jeff. i was furious because that happened before she told me that she liked him and she didn't tell me about that shit. i feel like i can't trust too many people anymore, especially girls. this isn't the first time this has happened to me, but ness knew that i've liked jeff for almost two years. you'd think she wouldn't do anything with him, but no. girls are bitches and only care about themselves.

friday was supposed to be my first day of work, but i was really sick and couldn't come in. i thought i would lose the job, but al was really cool about it and told me to e-mail him when i felt better.

yesterday was amazing (mostly)! ness changed her status on myspace/facebook to in a relationship. jeff called me from her phone, but i didn't pick up. he left a voicemail asking me to call him back, but i won't. i'm done with both of them. i met becky at her house. she gave me awesome hanukkah presents. a treasure chest for my fish tank, chapstick, tea, earrings, and a necklace. we went to see her friend to buy scarves for apollo's sister. then we went to this amazing shabu shabu place on 32nd street. i would love to go there again. we took the train to union, got jamba juice, and walked to webster hall. gogol bordello is by far the best band i have ever seen live. there was a pit, but it wasn't malicious or violent. of course there was the normal pushing and stuff, but it's happy music, so people weren't mean about it. afterwards, we were sweaty, tired, and half-deaf, but also really high from all the energy. becky slept over.

we slept until 11:45 this morning. we ate breakfast and watched the girls next door, which i'd never seen, but i have to say, it's hilarious to see how stupid those girls are. my dad drove us to becky's house, we got starbucks and went to cvs. i got home, went to harmon to pick up some stuff and went to borders. i got the new ap (finally!), gogol's first cd and fear and loathing on the campaign trail. i also saw bryan.

here's to next week being better than this one!

yesterday ness texted me and told me her friend was bringing him along. my heart started racing. i was so sad that i wasn't there. she told me what happened when she got home:
i mentioned you
and he was like omg sam its been so long
and i was like yeah why you dont talk to her anymore or something?
and hes like
yeah i didnt wanna drag that girl into my lifestyle...which i knew would be inevitable. but i wanna see her itd be so cool to see her again
and i was like well i can give you her number
and hes like yeah!
and he took it
and he told me where he'll be tomorrow
and that you and me should come see him

so we went today. i didn't go to the last us history class of the semester, but meh, i got the notes of what's going to be on the final. he looks healthy, for the first time in almost a year. he took me where he sleeps and said that i should come by and wake him up one morning and he'd take me to school <3 i'm going to see him again thursday =] it was a bit awkward because we haven't seen each other in so long, but i'm hoping things will get going again. i'm glad he's back in my life because i was miserable without him. i have my math final tomorrow and it's insanely early, so i should probably get to bed. here's to doing well on my finals!

so life is kinda stressful at the moment. finals are coming up and i have a project to do for asian history. i hate group projects and i hate group projects with presentations even more. oh well, what can i do? i saw becky on friday. i miss her <3 ali and i went to her place and chilled there for a bit. we did our usual (roland bagels and starbucks for breakfast) and went to cvs and keyfood looking for the glade scented candles that melt into oil because i thought they looked really cool on tv lol. we didn't find them, so we dropped ali off at the train on 225th and went to target. i found the oust version there, which is basically the same thing. after that i got on the 1 and met up with conor at a starbucks in times square. unfortunately, on the train, i had a bad reaction to the cold meds becky gave me. my heart started racing, it was hard to breathe, and i was very dizzy and lightheaded. i felt a bit better after being with conor for a bit. i finally was able to give him his birthday present (a lost dharma initiative mug and a dwight bobble head). then i met up with ali and after being stuck on metro north for an extra hour, we arrived home. i've been talking to joe a lot more lately. we even had a video chat yesterday. his kitty is adorable =] i also finally saw ness. i'm going to st. marks with her tomorrow to get a nose ring instead of the screw. hopefully it looks good. andrew gave me a dime yesterday. i didn't go to american today, so i left school around 1:15. i got the perfect munchies foods: mashed potatoes and mac and cheese from brother jimmy's, and a caramel machiatto, and the dark chocolate graham cracker thingies from starbucks. it was amazing. i felt so good. now i'm awake talking to steph and ness on ichat because i'm tired, but can't sleep. what a surprise.

Yesterday was awesome. I bought Malcolm Gladwell's new book, Outliers at the Barnes & Noble on 17th St. Then I walked to Blender to meet up with Courtney. I asked 3OH!3's merch guy, Dylan, to see if he could find her for me. He found Nat, who told Courtney to go outside. She was so sweet. I brought her, Nat and Sean vegan brownies and cake from Whole Foods and Kombuchas. She gave me a limited edition 3OH!3 tour necklace and brought me inside to watch their soundcheck and meet the guys. She was going to put me on the guest list so I'd be able to stay for the show, but they were going on kinda late. Kristen actually went and said they were amazing. I should have stayed. =[ In the cab on the way home, I heard "Confessions" on the radio. I thought "Who in the U.S. would play Dallas Green on the radio?" I've yet to find out what station it was, but kudos to them.

Last Wednesday, I saw Adam with some girl outside West, so I said hi and caught up with him. Jeff is apparently living on the street again near Adam's apartment. Ness, the girl, is really sweet. After class, we went back to Adam's place, chilled with him and Ed and drank. I was hoping to see Jeff so I could find out why he did what he did, but no such luck. I saw Joel McHale at the NYCF Saturday night. The opening comedians were awesome. He was freaking amazing. I could have stayed after the show to meet him, but Ali wanted to go home. =[ We saw Rocco DiSpirito there with some girl half his age. He's just as sexy in person. Sunday, we saw BJ Novak with Mindy Kaling, the guy from Best Week Ever on VH1, and a few other comedians. That was amazing as well. So, the 3OH!3 show is sold out =[ I'm really sad, but at least I get to see Courtney and give her Synergy and vegan treats. =] Afterwards, I'll probably head over to Malcolm Gladwell's book signing. Dal released U.S. tour dates for next year. January 12th at the Bowery Ballroom. Tickets go on sale Friday at 12, so I'm going to call at 11:59 lol. So, things are alright for now =]

10.05.08-10.06.08<3

I went to see City and Colour on Sunday and Monday. Dallas played two half-hour sets. From what I can remember he played: Body In A Box, Sleeping Sickness, Waiting, As Much As I Ever Could, Comin' Home, Sam Malone, Day Old Hate, Hello, I'm in Delaware, and Love Don't Live Here Anymore. He loved the cookies. =] He remembered me from the night before. Kristen and I met him on Sunday night. We took pictures with him and got to speak to him for a good 15 minutes. Him and I spoke about Gord Downie, Trailer Park Boys, and how he thought he needed a haircut (lol). I asked if he was gonna be around on Monday and he said yes. I walked up to him yesterday and he was like "It's you!" and hugged me haha. I also gave him the Doritos and cookies I brought for him. He said "Yay! Treats!" and thanked me. He left to do an interview, but came back out. He took another picture with me and signed my ticket: "Thanks for the cookies! ♥Dallas" He told me he's probably coming back in January! I would love to just hang out with him for an afternoon. That would make my life. =]

BFFF<3

So today (technically yesterday), I finally saw Becky. It was only a little over a month since I last saw her, but that was way too long. I met her at her Mom's house. We watched Monster, which I found to be an extremely fucked up movie, and we started to watch Everything Is Illuminated. She made me the best lunch: hummus on challah with fresh dill, tomatoes and cucumbers. We ate and watched So You Think You Can Dance for a while. Then we headed to her Dad's apartment to drop our stuff off and we walked to Target. We bought so much stuff. I bought these amazing chocolates with swirls of caramel, and we saw a bunch of The Office merch in a bin for $1 each. We each got a "World's Best Boss" mug, and I bought pens, pencils and a notepad. We went back to Becky's Dad's place, and he gave me a bunch of stickers that say "Have A Brain, Vote McCain." I love him. Becky also got me a UAlbany Football shirt <3 We went to Starbucks and CVS and then my Dad dropped her off at the bus. I already miss her. I can't wait to see her next time she comes home. I still have a bunch of schoolwork to do and I still feel like crap. =[

This makes me really happy...

So school's been a lot of work, but I'm enjoying myself nonetheless.
I've made some awesome new friends: Kristianna, Ivy, Christine, Katrina, April, Heather, Kristi, Kristen, Cristan, Tess, Matt, Dante, Jeff, and Angel.
They've made college awesome.
Yesterday Kristen brought Jager, Whiskey, Redbull and grape soda, so we had a little party out on the balcony.
Still nothing new with the boys, but I don't think about it so much when I'm with my friends.
I want to tell one of them how I feel after the City and Colour show.
Well, I've gotta head to sociology...

I Will Possess Your Heart

School is too much work.
I'll be up insanely late tonight and I have to wake up at 5 AM tomorrow morning.
There are 3 boys in my life that I care about, but I want to be with one in particular: Conor.
We've been best friends for two years.
I really care about him, but apparently he likes some freshman.
I want to tell him how I feel, but being rejected by someone two years younger than me will kill me, especially since it will fuck up our friendship.
Jordan in my math class is pretty cool. He lives in Mount Vernon, went to Iona, knows Matt, and knows the neighborhood where my Dad works. He's a real gentleman and very traditional.
Justin is in my American History class. He's in a band, has long hair, wears Iron Maiden shirts, etc. He reminds me of Spee from underOATH.
I'm so conflicted and it hurts a lot.

underOATH at Irving Plaza =D

I met this really cute couple from PA named Carol and Rocky.
They're so sweet.
I also met underOATH!
They were pretty nice, especially Chris and Tim.
Grant and Spencer are damn sexy!
They all signed my ticket, except Spee, who signed my phone ♥

College is pretty awesome. I'm taking ASIAN 210, SOC 101, PSYCH 100, FYS 100, HIST 152, and MATH 101. I just need to meet more people, find some good places to eat around there, and stuff to do during my 2-3 gaps in between classes. I got up to season 6 of King of the Hill. I saw Jack's Mannequin Thursday night with Ali and they were awesome. I'm going to be a new me. I'm excited. =D

A picture is worth a thousand words...

Dan and Adi


Lina


Maya


Sinnimints


Puppet

It's all in your goodbyes...

I'm going to miss Laura and Becky.

Yesterday I said goodbye to my wifey and today I said goodbye to my BFFF.

Becky and I went to Rolen for bagels and Starbucks for coffee, as we usually do.

We hung out at her house and then went to Petland for a glass top and filter cartridges. 

I can't believe they're leaving Friday.

It makes me so sad.

Adi and Maya are supposed to sleep over tomorrow.

Adi told me she'd call me tonight, but it doesn't look like that's happening, so it probably won't wind up happening. 

We'll see...

The End is the Beginning is the End

I saw Tropic Thunder with Laura this afternoon.

It wasn't so great.

Some parts were really funny, but the best was when Tom Cruise danced.

Then we went out for Chinese food.

She leaves for Hartwick on Friday.

I'm going to miss her so much.

At 4, I met up with Kristiana.

We went walked around China Town.

She's really awesome and I'm glad I got to know her. 

That's one more person I know in college. =]

I'm so freaking excited for the new Alexisonfire album!